When I was a kid I used to think my parents could only have ME as their kid so when I heard I would get a sister I was happy out of my mind. I kept planning on how we would trick  people now that I would have a twin. I realized it only some time after she was born, when it took her so long to catch up.

The truth is sometimes you never get over disappointments. You adapt, you bounce back, sometimes you improve and you think to yourself: see, another fucked up moment I turned to my advantage. but there's still something left that makes you a bit more bitter and a bit more skeptical.

When I was a kid I set it as a goal not to label people and not have preconceptions. It is pretty much the nicest attitude you can gave towards people since everybody has something nice about themselves, there are plenty of nice things you can learn from people. I am pretty sure Hitler had some funny puns over an Jager. But I find it hard to congratulate people for being less shitty than a while ago.

I guess some people cannot be my friends as much as I want to look past their flaws and it sucks because I love people.